There is someone out there that is special to me. We both know it and won’t act; fearing the loss of a strong friendship. As you can tell, this posting isn’t tech related, so feel free to keep reading my other posts. However, if you want to delve into my over analytical thought process on my personal life, by all means continue.
To give greater context I need to explain a few things otherwise it gets all confusing. Wayyy back, last year Rachel and I really connected and we have each other backs. That has since transpired into, as she puts it, partners in crime. Which is fine by me; she has her significant other and she’s all happy. Nothing pleases me more than seeing a best friend content with their life. Where am I going with this? Rachel and I had/have a strong friendship and hence that was the C-Block within myself. My own internal conflict essentially locked me down from expanding further.
This someone special that I am referring to, is my new partner in crime. She is fun, outgoing, and very straight forward. Although she isn’t as geek as I am (I say that like I’m proud of it…) but she accepts me as I am. Geek or not, its all good. We’ve kind of been hit and miss over the past months where I wanted something more but I fear rejection and as an overanalytical thinker; I really lock down if I see any obstacles like flings, long-term plans, or when I trip over my own metaphors with her. Anyhow, we can be together watch movies and chill and I’ll be completely content to either doing nothing or going out drinking and having a blast.
Recently, my career is definitely moving forward and right now the clutch is down and I’m moving from second to third so to speak. With that in mind, I will be relocating to my company’s base of operations which is 2,398 miles away to the east coast. I’m ready for change, I guess 21 years in the same city can do that to you. This new position is what I love to do and will really let me capitalize on what I want to do with myself professionally. Finally, someone found me, and I took that opportunity. As of now, nothing offical on my move date but I want it soon; really all I want is another week here and off to Joe Manna 2.0.
Opportunities don’t knock on your door. They really don’t. It’s the ones who go out, take risks, accept responsibility, and go out and seek them. This holds true with my career, and well this special someone. This is my moment. Carpe Diem. I do the best everyday to seize the day in one way or another. Why wait for the future? Write it, make it, own it. All this change brings on self reflection and realignment of my life’s goals and with this special someone not too sure. I mean, before I drop that L word, I really need to know and get validation. Not all Owners can be owners all the time. Perhaps it’s just destiny. Perhaps, its just how the cookie crumbles in my life. Who knows. I guess that is my pet peeve is that humans are variable and being someone with so many constants in their life, that is my area to build on.
Well, that’s whats on my mind if any of you bloggers wanted to know. If that isn’t transparent enough; I don’t know what is.